Fire

I love fire. I play with fire, I eat fire, I walk on fire and I set myself on fire.

I started walikng on fire when I was a baby (See older posts) now I not only walk on burning coals, but also I do it before the flames haven´t died completely. I also manage to stay on the fire standing up on my barefeet for a long time, instead of walking. I also blow fire and eat fire. I hold the torch with my mouth, I have flames in my mouth and my tongue. With the torch I pass the fire through my naked body litting myself on fire.
I also lay down on the floor naked and they apply a gel on me, then they lit this gel and I am completely covered in flames, it´s an amazing sensation and the people get amazed.
Another thing I do, is laying dwon naked and they set a big bonfire on my body over my tummy, my legs and my private parts. They put pieces of wood on me and they lit the fire, its a great sensation, (as long as the smoke doesn´t blow on your face).
Some people ask me how do I do it? I think there are various reasons, first is that the flames burn at the top. So if you lit your body on fire its the bottom of the fire in contact with your skin, so the heat is comming out (its like putting off a candle with your fingers, if you do it at the bottom of the flame you dont get burned), also is my skin, it can handle fire and doesn´t combust, (its like trying to burn a stone, it doesn´t burn, it just gets black) also I am able to control the pain, so I have no problem, and also I haven´t got any hair on my body, that helps :-) Plus of course the training.

 I said many times to do something extraordinary, and I dont mean only what i do, could be singing, dancing, sports, etc you need to get born with special abilities plus improve that through training.

I also put the torch on my tits and even set them on fire. Sometimes with gasoline and not the fire-gel.

But to prove I can handle fire really well, while naked I ask two volunteers to hold the torch just below my breasts, so the flames are burning my tits and my nipples. Many people move the fire around the body this way they never get burn. What you have to do is put the fire in the same position and hold it firmly with the top of flames in your naked skin, in your more sensitive areas and leave them for a quite a while. If you can endure this, then you are really hardcore, like me :-) Its an awsome feeling after a while you can feel your tits and specially your nipples like an acccute puncture, but I concentrate and endure the feeling (for me it´s not pain, as I actually enjoy it) Note that I have piercings in my nipples, metal piercings, so the heat is transferred even inside my nipple, burning my nipples from inside, but I love the feeling. Also I had lots of training so don´t try this at home, as I said before.

Lazy

Sorry I have been recently very lazy with my blog, busy with shows, visiting friends & travelling, but I hope to continue with the blog. Particularly I want to talk about FIRE, what I am able to do with it without burning myself. ;-)

Helsinki

Two years ago, in the middle of February I went with some friends to Helsinki for about 5 days. We wanted to see Finland in winter, with lots of snow, the sea frozen, etc. It was very beautiful but cold. Temperatures were usually between -5 to -10, specially during night.

I think I don´t have to mention that I went in complete bare feet, I didn´t take any shoes with me, as I do not have any. My friends told me if I was sure, I said: sure! But also I don´t have any coat or any winter clothes, so I went there with my usual stuff, shorts, mini skirts, small tops and mini dresses.

Some people walk barefoot in well below freezing temperatures but they usually have many other clothes on. Since I do not wear much clothes that makes my feet and my body most vulnerable to cold, but I can endure it with no problem.

Most of the time we were not outside for long time, as my friends, in spite of wearing lots of clothes they had cold. Visiting places also you get inside buildings and other places which are hot. But sightseeing we were outside and I was usually wearing shorts with no panties and sleeveless tops everyday. And of course barefoot.

The people looked at me a lot and asked me why I was wearing like this and why I didn´t have any shoes on. It was great walking in the snow barefoot, and feeling the cold and the grit they put to avoid the street to be very slippery.

During night I wore a mini-dress, mini skirt and very open top with all my back at the cold air and barefoot. One of my friends, the other girl also during night used to wear like me, almost nothing, but she was wearing shoes, although open high heels. The boys were completely wrapped up. One night it was -12 and my friend also took her shoes off while going back to the hostel.

One day we went to a fortress in some islands 15 mins from Helsinki in a small ferry boat. That day we spent the whole morning and part of the afternoon outside walking, and on top of that it was a bit windy and since this wasn´t the city center it was more open to the freezing air. But I was there with small sports shorts and a tiny top with just two strings on my shoulders, with my bare arms, bare shoulders and bare top of my chest to the freezing cold. And of course my bare legs and my bare feet. It was great to feel the cold and the air in my body. My skin later became very red and my small toes became first very pink and then purple. My friends offer me clothes to put on but I said no, I was OK. At the end of that day I found a bit difficult to move my fingers from my hand, but apart from that I was OK. That night after dinner, another mini-dress and out again :-)

One day we went to a sauna where you could swim on a ice-hole, as I am used to it that was no problem, I spent lots of time in the ice hole, the people were asking me how I could stay that long in the ice. Also when I finished instead of going to the sauna and have a hot shower I waited outside with my wet swimsuit and I dried myself with the cold air. Then back to the hostel again in shorts, a mini top and barefooted.

Overall it wasn´t that cold for me, and we enjoyed very much. Next winter may be we´ll go back to Finland but this time to the north, Rovaniemi, to see the reindeers, the northern lights, the Arctic polar circle and I intend to go again with small clothes and barefoot. No problem for me :-)

Glass

In my acts I play with glass very often. I walk bare feet on lots of broken glass. The glass has to be broken on the moment, don´t get fooled for those shows in which they bring the glass prepared already broken, or they just break one bottle in front of the audience. In real shows like mine, we break all the glass on the moment so is very sharp and this can cause real damage. I walk on it and I jump very high continuously smashing the glass with my bare feet and breaking it into smaller pieces. I also go on top of a platform which is 2 meters above ground and from there I jump to glass, breaking the glass into smaller pieces and feeling under feet how is broken and crushed. It´s great. The people love it and love being watched by the people. Another thing I is a put something like 4 or 5 one liter empty bottles on the floor, before they are broken, and I jump on them many times and smash them an break them with my bare feet.

I also lay down with my naked body on the broken glass (or wearing a tiny bikini, depending on the show) and someone goes on top of me. Another thing I do with glass is once I am laying down on the floor on the glass they pour fresh broken glass on top of me. The assistant in the show drops the glass on me from very high, as high as she can lift her arms, while I am on the floor. Thus making the thing very dangerous as the broken glass falls on my naked body with quite a bit of speed.

Another thing we do, is once I am covered with glass, and I have glass underneath me, the assistant, who also walks barefoot on glass, steps on me and walks on me breaking the glasses they are covering me against my body. I do this both downwards: she walks on my back, my ass and the top of my legs, and also when I am upwards: stepping on my chest, breasts, stomach and the top of my legs. I don't feel any pain nor get any injury.

I also like to eat glass, may be that´s my favourite food together with fire :-) I started eating light bulbs, so the glass is very thin but then I moved to usual glass bottles, even sometimes breaking the glass with my teeth. One day I ate a whole bottle of beer of 300 mls of glass. Do not ask how my body metabolises it, I just do it.

Also another thing I do is go up a ladder of sharps swords and lay down on a bed of sharp swords. As an extra a big block of concrete is put on my naked stomach and smashed while laying on the swords. Remember my training about this since I was a child so is no problem for me at all.

Most of these things are not quite special as there are out there a lot of performers doing these things They are quite common between side show performers. That´s why I want to push my self to the limits to be a special one, to be the best I can. My own physiology of my body, my strength, my determination, my training and my control of the pain help me to handle all this and much more amazing things I do. I´ve been advice to say in this blog: Do not try all this at home :-)

Suspensions

I love suspensions. I have tried it a few times and every time I want to push my self even more. In case you don´t know suspensions are about getting suspended on the air through big hooks on your flesh. My first one was a four point suspension on my back. It didn´t hurt much and almost I didn´t bleed. It was amazing. First when you get pierced with the big hooks, it´s great feeling the metal going into your skin and coming out, better than a piercing, since piercings are usually very thin. But the best bit is when you get suspended into the air, you are lifted slowly until you are there on air. It´s the closer to flying as you can have, with nothing to hold you except your own skin. Then I was moved and swinged and twisted around, spinning, spinning faster and going up and down, swinging, higher and faster: it was great!

I like it so much that I repeated in my shows and in personal parties many times. Later I tried with only two hooks, but bigger ones. Also I tried horizontally suspensions, but my favourite is vertical from my back, as your body is standing up.

Since I want to push the limits, after doing those a few times, I tried a vertical suspension, but instead of being lifted slowly I just jumped from a platform. This could be dangerous as your skin may be ripped and you can fall, so we tried with 4 points it was great. Again it didn´t hurt to me.

Again pushing the limits I wanted a suspension through my breasts. We needed bigger hooks this time but the breast can easily hold the weight of my body. Pushing even more other day I tried a suspension from my pussy. I always had piercings there and in my labia, specially my outer labia are big and stretched, so they said may be ok. So they tried, but in this case putting quite a lot of hooks making sure my pussy could hold my whole weight. It was great again, but the position is much uncomfortable than the typical suspension from the back, as in this case you are nearly upside down, since the upper part of your body weighs more than your legs.

Finally I wanted to try the ultimate suspension: from my nipples!!! When I said my nipples, I mean my nipples, not my chest or my breast. I heard about a couple guys that tried and both failed: they ripped their nipples. I didn´t heard of any woman trying. This sounded strange to me, because men have smaller nipples and weigh more. I thought for a girl is easier, bigger nipples and lighter weight. Before that I trained lifting weights with my nipples. I already had experience doing that with my nipples, but I had to increase the weight. I also didn´t want to do it with weights holding down from my nipples, because firstly, they will deform them, and second the suspension was to be upwards. So I put the weights on a rope going on top of a bar that was higher than me. This way both the nipples and breasts will tend to go up (Which is great for good looking purposes as well). I also tried to make my nipples bigger. How?: using clamps and clothespins on them. Wearing them almost all the time, also while sleeping. I had to change the position regularly to avoid deformation of my nipples. If one day they were clipping my nipples vertically, the next day they were horizontally. Again because my endurance to pain, this didn´t cause much problem to me. Then I was increasing the lifting weights of my nipples and holding them for longer. Again my endurance to pain and my concentration helped me through this. And finally  the big day arrived. My nipples had to hold my whole body on the air. I could only get two hooks, one per nipple. The piercer did it as far as possible from the tip of the nipple, but making sure he wasn´t doing it on the flesh of the breast, otherwise it wouldn´t be a nipple suspension. With the hooks on we started the lifting slowly. My nipples were stretching and stretching and so my breasts. But I  managed to do it. I was there suspended only from my nipples. It didn´t hurt so much, but my nipples were very stretched. I even managed to swing a little bit. The piercer was concerned that my nipples would rip off but they didn´t. Anyway just in case they didn´t keep me longer in the air. But experience was great and I want to repeat it.

On the forest

Last spring we went to camp in a forest in south England. As usual I went barefoot (as I don´t have any shoes). Although it wasn´t a nudist camp, I used to go naked most of the time, and they were people camping not far from us. We used to walk and hike a lot, (sometimes I wore a bikini) and there were lots of paths full of sharp rocks. Sometimes we went off the paths and there were lots of thorns. I step on them many times with no problem at all.

On the mornings we went jogging, and I was barefoot of course. Again always on sharp rocks and some times we were running on the thorns, but I was the only one in bare feet.

I remember after walking and hiking we found a stream and I went with my bare feet into it, the rest were jealous and they have to remove their shoes to do the same. Later with my wet feet I continued walking and I got a lot of dirt on my soles because of the water, forming something like mud on my soles.

During the night we used to lit a fire and after drinking and smoking we start jumping the fire. As for me, I went into the fire in my bare feet, as I was used to walk on fire since I was a child. I was standing there on my bare feet, and not only on the hot coals, but on the fire itself with flames sometimes reaching my knees, with no pain or burns.

I used to be naked most of the time, I once I was told off by some other people camping, saying that this was not a naturist site and that they were children around, I told them to f**k off!

In the forest there was the possibility of renting horses to ride, we went there as one of our friends knew them. I went on my bikini and barefoot of course. When we rented the horses I asked to remove the horse chair and the steps. After we left the place I removed my bikini and I rode fully naked. It was an amazing sensation, feeling the soft skin of the horse in my body and my legs, and feeling the wind on the rest of my body, especially while galloping. This way you feel much closer to nature. It´s a bit like the difference between swimming in a swimsuit or swimming naked, or I guess, like walking with shoes or walking in bare feet. (I said "I guess" because I don´t know whats walking on shoes, and I don't want I know).

Clothes. My fashion.

As I said before I love to be naked all the time, but sometimes that is not possible, so I wear some clothes, but not too many and very small and comfortable ones. No matter the weather. I also do not own any jacket, sweeter or anything that cover me too much.

At home I am always naked, even sometimes living with other people sharing the house. They are used to see me naked wandering around and also the neighbours see me often naked when I go outside to the garden, to put the rubbish, or to lay down in the sun. Sometimes the door bell rings and I go to open the door completely naked, so image the face from strangers, specially men, when a fully naked woman opens the door. Even sometimes I´ve been shopping completely naked to my local shop or to my small local supermarket. They know me there and I think they are used to it. People who don´t know me  or come to that place for the first time they think this is the hidden camera program. I also love the people to look at me so I don´t mind that. What I really hate is the harassers, people insinuating or even touching me, some of them they had a big slap on their face.

Usually I wear very small mini-skirts or micro-skirts, some of them flashing a big part of my bottom. I also wear small tops, usually bikini tops just to cover my breasts, or very sexy small tops, leaving my arms, shoulder and belly to open air. Again no matter the weather and sometimes even if its well below freezing. I also love mini-dresses, as I am barefoot thats the only piece of clothing I have on me. Sometimes I´ve been wearing just a top or a t-shirt that goes a little bit below my waist and completely bottom-less, showing part of my ass again and of course my whole legs. Usually I don not wear any underwear at all, but sometimes I wear small thongs. I do not have any bras, apart from bikini tops. I also like  small shorts (very short shorts)usually various sizes smaller than my real size, like sport shorts. I love to leave part of my butt to the air. I also have some two pieces swimsuits, and I wear the bottom short as normal street cloth.

Recently I am on leggings, very transparent ones, and instead of that I just wear completely transparent panties, and I say they are just leggings. I also made, with the help of a friend, some transparent panties, we cut them like a short so my legs could be bare, but kinda "cover" my butt and pussy, although they were completely transparent.

Also sometimes I like to wear like a hippie style, and that´s when I have more clothes on, so image that.

Because I have piercings in my nipples, also some times I attach some piece of fabric to them, so I am like showing my breasts but not completely.

Again with the help of a friend we designed a new type of underwear that I like to wear. It consists of two piercings on my flesh on top of my pussy. Then a triangle covers my intimate parts and finishes on a elastic band, which is attached to another piercing I have on the top of my ass, at the end of my back. Also we have attached that elastic band to a dildo that goes into my ass-hole. Therefore from the back it looks that I am naked but from the front I have my pubis covered. I have been with this on a crowed beach, and no problems apart form strange looks and comments.

When I go to the beach, usually in Spain, I just wear a tiny thong and I go top-less. I know I could go to nudist-beaches, but I prefer the fashion-ones. I get lots of looks, even some people call me indecent, but I ignore them. If you go a few meters ago it looks like I am fully naked as they are made with a narrow elastic band. When I swim I love to swim naked, so in the water I take my thong out and put it around my wrist. Some times, playing with a girl-friend or boy friend or enjoyng the swim I forget I am actually completely naked and i get out of the water like that and I lay down on my towel completely naked in a crowded beach. Anyway, there is not a big difference between wearing or not wearing my tiny thong.

Not long ago, I registered for a course on computers (I am still not very good at it). The course was in winter, and the first day I decided not to be too shocking in my clothes, so I wore a tiny top (leaving my shoulders, full arms and tummy all bare) and a micro-skirt just a little bit over my butt (I have shorter-ones), I even wore a thong not to reveal too much, and of course my bare-feet. I had some comments about my clothes, and I notice some other girls laughing, and the boys all around me. The next day I wore a fitted short, again showing a bit of my butt but not much (Again I have shorter ones), this in fact was part of a swimsuit, and I wore on top, the top of that swim-suit, so I was only covering my breasts. Barefoot again, of course. That day it was about 0 to 5 degrees and very strong and chill wind. The people were of staring at me and commenting, not to mention when I arrived at the class. They though I couldn´t wear more revealing clothes, than the day before, specially with that temperature, and I was there actually wearing only a swimsuit. That day I was called by the direction of the academy saying that my clothing wasn´t appropriate, I should cover myself more and wear some shoes. The next day I was a bit angry so I wore a 10 cm transparent pink tmicro-skirt with no under wear, not only revealing most of my butt but also you didn´t have to look much to see my pussy. I wore a very tiny bikini top covering a little bit more than my nipples. That day we had a big argument with the direction and I was expelled. They gave me my money back, and I decided to hire a personal teacher to come to my home to teach me about computers. This was a kind of a young guy, engineering student, a bit of a geek, but he ´t bother that I was completely naked at home, as usual, while having my classes.

Tattoos, piercings and body modifications

I love tattoos and piercings. I have most of body tattooed and I have lots of piercings. I started when I was a child as my parents had some I felt jealous and wanted some. Since one of my parents friends was a tattooist I had no problem although being well under age to have tattoos and piercings. Since I do not feel any pain, they are not a problem for me and I love them. I also love the looks and comments I get from the people. Some of my piercings I remove them and have them done again, I love when they are done. I have piercings even in my nipples, some of them very big, and also in my genitals, including inner and outer labia, my clit. Sometimes I wear some massive piercings with weights on them. They are great with small skirts and no underwear, specially while walking and I feel them moving. Once I had 50 piercings only in my pussy.

As I like to try everything and push myself to the limits I also have brandings and scarifications. The scarifications I ask them to make it deep and don´t be afraid to cut. They were I amazed that I was there smiling and chatting feeling not pain at all. As for the brandings I have five!! One massive at the bottom of my back top of my ass. This was done with a massive piece of metal T shaped. The top of the ´T´ was 10 cm long and 2 cm thick and is the part that is put on the fire until it becomes glowing red, then I am marked with that 10 times!! to form a 5 point star. I have other 4 smalller in my arm, my breast, my back and my pussy. I never had pain and I enjoyed getting them done. I felt some pleasure.

Sometimes I get pierced with massive hooks or skewers as part of my shows, including my cheeks, my breasts and sometimes to do suspensions. I´ll talk about this in other posts.

Barefeet

As I said before I am barefooter. I never wear shoes, in fact I do not own any. This comes from part of the naturist philosophy I explained before. I love to be naked and barefooted. Going naked everywhere can give me lots of trouble (police, harassment, etc) ,but going barefooted, no. And usually I never had any problem, even going to places where barefoot is not common, like cinema, restaurants, pubs, night clubs, offices, travelling, etc. Sometime I get some comments, but that´s about it.

My soles are so hard, probably because of my acts (glass walking and glass jumping, fire walking, etc) so I do not have any problem. I can run easily in sharp rocks and gravel as if I was doing so in sand. I can step on all types of terrain, including places in nature, full of thorns. And I have done lots of excursions to places where bare feet are not appropriate at all. I also have no problem walking on dirty places full of broken glass. As an example sometimes I have been in pubs where later in the night the floor becomes a carpet of broken glass, and because of drink spillages the floor becomes very stick,y and I was there many times dancing on my bare feet on broken glasses.

As an other example, often I go to street parties. If you are in Britain, may be you heard about Notting Hill carnival. If you have been there, you know that is very crowded and soon the floor becomes full of rubbish from the food the drinks and broken glasses and bottles. So no problem for me, I am there dancing like mad on the broken glasses, and if I step in some broken glass or bottles I just break them into smaller pieces. The people look at me and comment about it, but I like it. I have been in other festivals and celebrations like that across Europe, always in bare feet.

In winter I also do not wear any shoes at all. Sometimes even with heavy snow, or going to places in north Europe where the winter is very hard. Again I did this since I was a child, I am used to it and I have no problem. I can stay there walking for a very long time on the snow. Occasionally if I have been nearly one full day barefooted in the snow by the end of the day my feet are very red and sometimes my small toes even purple but that's not a problem and after resting at home they are ok.

When is very hot I also haven´t got any trouble (remember I am a very good firewalker since I was a baby). I have been in Spain in summer, specially in Madrid and South Spain, walking barefooted in a extreme hot summer in the middle of the day, when the temperature was 45,. Sometimes walking for a long long time in a road side in the asphalt.  I do not know what the temperature of the asphalt was, but I guess much higher. I was with a friend that he couldn´t put the feet without the shoe for one single second  on the asphalt,he said it burned and put his foot back in the shoe. I was there walking barefoot for hours with no problem at all.

Extreme training

To improve my abilities and my resistance to pain I did some more hard training. I started this training when I was about 12-13. To make my muscles in the abdomen harder I was hit with flat wood stick and iron bars (from the lifting weights), every time with stronger hits. While doing my sit ups exercises I was also hit with this iron bar in between. By doing this my muscles became very very strong and if somebody was to hit me there I wouldn´t feel any pain at all. Also this was a training for one of the acts, consisting of breaking a big a heavy piece of concrete in my naked tummy. Also I´ve been doing this act while laying down broken glasses or a bed of nails and swords. The training would ensure this would be easy to do for me.

Sometimes I was doing my sit ups in a bed of nails or broken glasses. Also on these beds I was doing push ups, lots them. Even sometimes, I said before, with a heavy weight in my back. Also occassionally the weight (a typical circular weight for lifting with the bars) was put into the fire, and while very hot it was put on my back for me to do my exercises.

I always also doing some jumps and karate/judo style movements on a layer of fresh broken glass. Also jumping and breaking thick pieces of wood and landing with my bare feet on those broken glasses.

Although it may sound like torture, I really enjoyed it, it was proving to myself what I was capable of doing, and I liked the challenges. Never had a major injury or cut, nor felt to much pain. Remember I am almost pain-proof :-)

Pain

Like many of the top famous sport men and women, artists, fighters, etc, you need to be born with a very talented capabilities. Also you need to train and work very hard on them to become one of the best in the world in your aptitudes. If you are born with these capabilities but don't train to maximize them you won´t become one of the bests. If you train a lot, but you were not born with the aptitude you ll never become one of the best. Also the sooner you start the training and the harder you try the better you´ll become. And this applies to many things.

I was born with very specific capabilities, probably because of my parents genes, but I also trained very hard since I was a child, or a even a baby. Apart from being very strong, skillful, agile, fast, etc I don´t feel pain easily but on top of that, I learned how to control it from my mind. Also sometimes what some consider pain for me becomes pleasure. Once I was in a TV program and they were talking about this. A doctor talked about my capabilities and how I endure pain, he said that has something to do with the nervous system and the way the signals are sent to the brain. He said I am very lucky to do not feel too much pain, (or need a extreme painful reflect to feel some) but it had one downside. For most of the people feeling pain is a signal to the brain saying that something is wrong, i.e. a disease, and in my case because my response to pain is not usual, I could have something wrong and not realize. So he recommended me do regular checks.

The society

My dad was one of the leaders of a society or group. This group had a special philosophy about life who marked me. This philosophy is based on the mind power over body, although also gives the body an important role. Nature and naturism was part of it as this is the way we are born and like all animals in nature, they way we should live. It is also based on empower the people and believe in themselves to achieve their goals. To show that is why we were doing the acts, to show people what we are capable of doing: walking on fire and glass, swimming in ice-water show our body strength, our body resistance and the control of the pain. All of that comes from the power of the mind.

In the group there were children as well, showing their capabilities, and I was the ´star´of all of them. We were doing shows outside, even in winter, wearing only something like a decorated bikini, in temperatures of well below freezing, and of course barefoot, as part of the acts involved using our bare feet. When we were doing gatherings, specially if these were in an relatively remote area, like in my dad´s house, or other friends house in the mountains, we were all complete naked, men, women and children, and even sometimes outside on the snow in freezing temperatures.

Part of the philosophy of the society was about sexuality, and about this there was no taboo at all. Sexuality, was a very natural thing as well, and since children we were learning about it, and use it for our pleasure. In this society there were no teenagers, as soon as you developed your reproductive organs you were considered an adult. Even before that they encourage children to discover themselves sexuality playing with other children, no adults, though. But if you were 13-14 it was ok to have sex with people over 18 as you were already an adult. Also, for instance if my parents were having sex, it was ok for me to stay in the room and watch them and they were not bother, that was part of the learning procedure about life, and then we were playing sexual games with other children, trying to mimic what the adults do. I can not remember the first time I did play sexual games with other children but I think the first time somebody penetrate me I must have been about 7 or 8, with a boy of about 11. This wasn´t unusual, and remember we were most of the time naked, so the sooner or later while mixing boys and girls we had to feel curiosity about this and experiment with it.

Childhood training

When we were not travelling, me and my parents lived in the Urals. There my dad and my mum, but mainly my dad used to train. Train on the acts and train on keeping very fit and strong. Since I was very small I started to feel curiosity about what my dad was doing. On the other hand my dad wanted to train me to become a very strong and skill-full woman.

I said before that as soon as I started walking he taught to me walk on fire and glass. I started doing exercises for my flexibility very soon. I don´t even remember my age. I did always lots of sit up and push up exercises. I also was going to run in the mountains in the morning, always barefoot. In summer in paths full of gravel and sharp stones, in winter in the snow. He also trained me in fighting, a bit like a game when I was very little, but training anyway. I was also lifting weights very regularly and breaking pieces of wood with my hands and feet, sort of karate/judo style. My dad was always encouraging me and he made all to look like a game to me. I really enjoyed it and I always wanted to do more exercises and to improve my self, doing more sit ups, push ups, lifting more weight, running longer and faster or breaking thicker pieces of wood. He had also some machines like a gym, so we had everything there to train. We were also using the gym of the society in the city if we were going there.

When I was 8-10 I was totally empowered, I was very strong. Walking on fire and glass and swimming in ice water gave me lots of confidence. Also I was provided with the concentration to do all the amazing things, always with the moto: the mind controls the body. I was the able to break with my hands, and specially with my feet very thick pieces of wood and bricks. I was also trained in playing with fire and I started to play part in the shows, which I really loved to do.

At that age I could already eat fire and lit fire on my body, jump on broken glass, go up on a sword ladder, lay down in broken glass and and in a bed nails with somebody standing on me and many other things.

Then I started to do more difficult exercises like one hand push-ups, doing the push-ups in a bed of nails, or doing the push-ups with heavy weights on my back. We also used to take the big pieces of fire wood from the forest and we tried to break it into smaller pieces by using our naked hands and feet.

One day we had to take down one tree, I think I was nearly twelve. The tree was more than half a meter in diameter and strong timber. My dad told me to break it down using just my body. He showed my that my stronger part, where I have more strength and muscle is my legs, so he showed me how to position myself and try to send all my strength from my body and mind through my leg to my foot. The soles of my feet were very hard anyway and that was the part hitting the tree. He told me to visualize the hit and the tree falling, concentrate, do the movement without the hit first a few times, and finally do the real one, breathing in and out, with a big scream. I did it and I made a massive crack on the tree. I didn´t feel much pain. He told to finish it off, so I did a few hits more with my bare feet on the tree and a final push with my body and the tree fell down. My dad was very proud of me, he congratulated me and told me I should not fear anything nor anybody, If I was able to do this that young I could easily kill the strongest man.

Childhood

I spent my childhood travelling with my parents, to do performances, sometimes with a group, sometimes with a circus, sometimes just the family. I also spend lots of time, in my dad´s house in Russia. I almost never went to school. Except occasionally if we were living in the same place for sometime, or sometimes with other children in the circus. While in Russia I never went to school, my parents didn´t want me to, specially my dad. Life is the best school, he said. My mum taught me to read and write, that's why Spanish is my first language, and some basic maths.

Most of the time when I was in  the Urals I  was playing and training performances and sport with my parents. We lived in house in a beautiful place in the mountains, 10 mins uphill in the mountain from a small village. There was a small stream near our house, and another 10-15 mins up in the mountain there was a nice water fall forming a pond. That's where I used to swim almost every day. In winter there was lots of ice as the temperatures reached -10 easily, sometimes and during night even -20. So we had to break the ice to swim.

We used to live naked, even while going outside in winter, with lots of snow. And of course in bare feet. This was the most naturist way to live. Animals free in nature do not wear anything, no matter the temperature, so why should we?

I used to spend quite a lot of time outside, even in winter, absolutely naked and in bare feet. I went to the water fall and pond for swim, without taking not even a towel. And I used to play like that in the snow by the house making snow men. Sometimes if I was a there for a long time my skin became very red, and my smallest toes sometimes purple, but that didn´t bother me.

Sometimes I used to go down to the village with my mum for shopping. My mum used to dress something then, but very often I went there completely naked. For the people that didn´t know us it was very shocking seeing a small girl naked and barefooted specially in the hard winter with lots of snow. Often, if my dad had gone to the city with the car (where there was the society he was one the leaders) or if we couldn´t move the car due to the heavy snow we even went there walking, me in my bare feet. Other times I was wearing something, but that was probably a small short dress sleeve-less and always barefoot as I didn´t have any shoes. And I still haven´t got any.

The beggining: when I was a baby

Both my parents were performers, street performers and circus performers. My mum was Swiss of Spanish origin, and Spanish is my native tongue. My dad is from Russian origin, from the Urals. He also speaks Spanish. He is very strong and athletic and a great circus performer. He was also one of the leaders of a group with a particular and open philosophy about live. I´ll talk about this later, it is quite interesting and had a big influence in my life and the way I live.

I was born in an unassisted birth, fully natural in the Urals, in my dad´s house. Only him was next to mum when I was born. He said that one of the first things he did when I was a baby to throw me into an ice hole for me to swim, although my mum was there to catch me in case. And yes I swam, under the freezing water with no lessons taken!

They say my dad wanted a boy, a super strong boy, to be better than him, and train him to became the strongest and more athletic man in the world and the best performer in the world to do the most dangerous acts. But he got a girl instead: me. That didn´t put him off. He did with me all the things he would have done with a boy. Plus he was so proud for me being pretty as well.

My training started when I was a baby. I learned to walk on broken glass and hot charcoals at the same time I was doing my first steps. These were regular things for all the people to do in the group my dad was leading. I also was thrown regularly in the ice hole, for longer and longer time. I also was left naked playing in the snow for long time to get acclimatized to cold weather (We were naturists as well as part of the group philosophy). He said at some point he put me down sitting on broken glasses so I could play with them, and I even, took some put them in mouth and ate them. That was my first time eating glass. Much more would come in the future. Playing and training was the same thing for me. And apparently I really enjoyed. Never had an injury or big cut and I was nearly never crying.

Being nearly still baby I already knew how to walk on broken glass, fire, ice-swimming and endure the most extreme cold.

Intro

Hi. My name is Sheila and by advice of a friend I´ll be sharing my extreme experiences and memoirs. I am a super-strong side show performer and a hardcore freak-girl. I have been working in circus and doing side-shows. I´ve been also working as a  kind of fetish model and even porn-actress, and many other things, to get some extra money.

I say I am super-strong because I really am. I don´t mean I have a super-massive musculature (women looking like men) but I am pretty strong with hard muscles. But I am very feminine in my body and sexy, or so the people say. However my main virtue is that I am pain-proof. In other words I do not feel pain easily, even doing the most bizarre acts. You´ll know why and in future posts and you´ll be amazed! But I am not super-special or unique in the world, there is some other like me out there, with similar aptitudes. But not many though :-)

I also do not feel cold nor heat easily. I tend to wear as less clothes as possible. Probably because I love being watched and be the centre of attention. That´s why I like my job, apart that I enjoy it. More than that, I feel pleasure while doing my job.

I love tattoos and piercings as well, and I have quite a lot, including branding and scarifications. I also go barefoot every where and perform barefoot as I do not have any shoes at all and almost never in my live wore any. Not even in extreme winter and snow.  I also swim in winter out-doors or in ice holes and endure cold and below freezing temperatures for a long time wearing almost nothing, or actually nothing sometimes
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I love superation, and overcome pain. I want to do always the most difficult act and prove to myself I can do everything, there are no limits. The mind controls the body. If I hear of somebody doing an act that I like I train and try myself to do it and to do it even more difficult.

My typical and easy acts are fire playing, fire-walking, glass walking and jumping, bed of nails, suspensions and much more bizarre acts.


I also have been trained in kind of martial arts and I can do amazing things with my body, hands and feet like breaking massive blocks of wood, bricks and even metal. You wouldn´t want to mess with me. :-)